Life gives you lemon, you make what?

Good Morning Loves!

2 weeks ago I had the surgery, Monday I had the post op, I meant to come back here and blog about it, and I forgot (sorry)

For starters, the word cancer did not cross my mind, I am so glad I did not know that possibility because I would have been extremely anxious and just a big wad a mess.

Monday, my lab came back, my uterus, cervix and tubes were taken out, I feel amazingly better, while I am so young for this, but I and the dr are hopeful. I would love to live life again. I cannot wait, he is so happy I feel so good compared to previously, my moods, I can move better. I do not have to worry about collapsing. While this surgery is pretty common, but I had no idea how tired I could have been getting, so easily worn. I am on no medication for pains, or anything for it. It makes me happy. I drove for the first time yesterday, I had clearance, but it was so uncomfortable

Cancer free (yay) while the dr was like “your more worried about the pain coming back ? (which I was) most are worried about the cancer…. ”

My face, I was in shock and had a horrified look so glad it didn’t cross my mind, cervix was inflamed, endometriosis – while my ovaries (did you know that ALL ovaries are WHITE?!?!? looked weird when I saw pics) are fine, there was no endo cells floating around, which that is good, it is not likely for it to come back. so we are VERY hopeful. I accept that I will never child bear another child, but my 3 year old is my pride and joy. While I wanted a girl, but for some strange reason, I am so happy with a boy. Maybe because I grew up as a tomboy.

so I have to go back in 5 weeks, I was hoping to hit back my job at week 3. Nope. I came up with tons of projects, I went to Joann yesterday got some yarn, Knitting Christmas gifts, scarves, hats, and I finished 2 pairs of pillow cases (one was a year old some project I finished this week) and did another project. I have some Embroidery projects to do, I am just stocking up. I have no idea who I am making them for. Hopefully this week, The downstairs will be cleaned up, so I can play with my sewing machine for the first time since OCT. I have quilt ideas. I will keep busy for the next 5 weeks 🙂 I also have to make quilt retreat gifts, 25 of them, I made 6. Yo yo keychains… just a pain in my arse, I thought it would be so easy and quick. Pictures fools you!

Happy friday everyone – have a great Friday – I need to catch up and read my blogging buddies!

Also I gotten my ipsy bag this month, I think I do enjoy! 🙂


❤ Amber

Casual · make up · positive

My first wingtip attempt / pic

Good Morning Loves!

I could not sleep last night, it hit me I never did a wingtip before, so I think with my recovery I am going to play around and practice on my skills of eyes, I know I am pretty basic, but in my 30s I should do a bit more and get better. I think it will help me out more.

So two different brushes were used for this, since I only had the purple gel liner, I had to take the flat brush I do not remember the name of it, kind of a half triangle shape, I dipped in black shadow and went over it to make it black, but I did not put foundation or under eye thing to cover my bags / color, so I can see my flaws of unmade face. but under the eye I put some orange and a few lighter colors of my shadow. I think I need to invest into new brushes… because mine is so simple. I have not put on any settling spray, so I am going to see how long the shadow lasts, I do not want to “waste” any just for sitting around. usually I put liner on last after shadows but not today. I used the same palette from yesterday Photo Editor-20190313_110518


I think I will keep practicing on my skills, since I am going to be home for at least 2 more weeks, is there any other topics or thoughts to blog about or activities  I can do? I am unable to drive for a bit, but I do read, I have a book club next Friday, I am trying really hard to finish it, but its a drag, “A Man Name Ove” just not my cup of tea, next book I have “Friend” 1980s thriller book about a girl dies the neighbor boy brings her back to life and all kinds of bad things happen. Maybe I can re read my walking dead books. I booked my 3 year olds birthday party for June at Pump it up – he loves that place he said he wants superman theme, I am going to ask him again next week or so, and if he says the same, then I will have someone take me to the party store, this time I will do goodie bags, not buy pre made ones, and maybe some banners etc. 🙂 simple but not so big, and maybe a cake too. something to fill my time.

I cannot sew quite yet, I have not sat in the hard chairs to eat on the table yet, I do not think I will be able to sew yet. I have not sewn since October 😦 I have been bored of knitting, I finished season 6 of once upon a time – they should have left it at that – so I am not interested in season 7. so I do not want to start a new show to binge, that’s a commitment I do not want to make after my recovery. I do not plan to lay around as much.

I would love to hear your thoughts.

❤ Amber

Casual · make up

Preschool & Eye make up (pics)

Hello Loves,

First off – today is day 6 of recovery, I am extremely bored, my  husband went to a training, and my son is not home, my question is it going to be like this for few weeks before I go back to work!?!?!

So – I was super anxious I did not sleep last night, one of those sleepless nights because the preschool we want our son to get into its a bit more private less children more nature thing, but the problem was its a lottery!  seriously they had 4 spots open for his age group 4-5 years old, and they draw the NAMES to pick! O.O which is fine, but it is way better than paying much more for public school – it would be so cramped and such, I think this will be a good experience for him 🙂 so therefore, after 4 names drawn but they were 3-4 year olds they had more openings, I was like please. please. please….. his name was drawn I was SO excited while other parents were like getting up and walking calmly I’m like Y E S !!!! and I told john he gets to go to school there, and hes excited. I was taken today to go there which is a huge help, first time to go out of the house I dressed up, I pushed myself a bit too hard, so it is worth it. That is a huge relief

Down below a picture of my eyes I do not know if I took a good pic, and my tools I used. no mascara or primers etc.

As I said I was so bored – I may do this when I am home alone starting next week, maybe this will help pass time. 🙂

I follow direction, I did not use wing tips or mascara but the brush I used was Mary Kay all over shadow its simple, everyday use – nothing fancy but I love how it feels, I did not know I was supposed to hold by the tip of the brush!

Then I used Urban Decay “Distortion” Palette

*Color One: Trash Talk

*Color Two: Blur

*Color Three: Territorial

It was awkward for me to use eye liner because I used one hand holding mirror and one to use my hand, which I usually use 2 hands, so I used Mary Kay – Gel liner “Orchard”

I would love to hear your thoughts 🙂

I  think I will do it again! (another tip video)

❤ Amber


Day 6

Good morning loves,

I couldnt sleep last night been up since 3 am, I made breakfast, had coffee first coffee in a week, showered, did my nails from color street I found I bought a while ago. I am so hoping John gets his name picked today is when we find out i have to be there so I am gonna do make up and such. Good thoughts please

I am moving around better



Gotta feel the love ♡

I have received flowers and neat bracelet during my recovery ♡ day 5 after surgery I feel.more aches to my back and hips. Already bored Haha. I do have to finish a book club book by next Friday a man name ove. The bracelet is pretty cool I may wear it to work when I return. Enjoy the pics!


Post surgery

Good Morning Loves,

I would have typed a entry earlier on the other day but after the surgery I came home that day, then I had someone come over baby sit me on Friday while my husband had game to go to, then my mom came over on Saturday I just didn’t feel like it, but I have been very alert since I came home. which is surprising

So – I am alive, my surgery went well on Thursday morning, but apparently I bled a lot over the surgery which was not normal, so I had a nose bleed during the process then other bleedings. so it turns out my scar tissue was really thick, the doctor was really surprised, he took out my uterus, and he saw no endromisois cells which is great news, so hopefully this will help all my pains. the doctor had to ask if I had another surgery because it seems like it was too much scar tissues for it to be this bad. they sent it to lab work, and hopefully they will come back with answers, I do not feel so bad about it, it was the right call, but I know I can never child bear another child, but it is not the same as adopting. I wanted to feel everything, but I am lucky to have at least one.

I am a bit worried about what the results will say about the uterus not sure what to expect.

I have a house keeper coming for the next few weeks to help with housework which is great.

❤ Amber



The day before….

Good Afternoon Loves ❤

I am starving, I am on a clear liquid diet today – tomorrow is the big day, I hope they still do it, I have a minor cold. but hopefully that goes away.

I went to work half the day, man some people hugged the crap out of me today – I know I will be missed – I am so nervous, I keep getting emotional and worried, and so scared, I know I will be alright, I just hope that this will help my pain, and make things go away. for good.

I came home after half the day, I have someone here cleaning, she spent 2 hours in my kitchen, not cleaning inside the fridge and such, but man, it must have been BAD, I think it was, but its months of me not being able to do anything, I fell so behind. so as long as she does the bathroom and kitchen, I am good, she will come back next week, and keep getting things back in order. I didn’t want Johns room, living room or dining room to be touched because she was able to say for 3 hours today, that girl hasn’t took a break! I never used a maid service, but I will tell you, at times like this, I am glad I did, because it made things easier.

During my recovery, I may play with make up, I hope to finish reading my book club book, I am almost half way of “A Man Name Ove” but I haven’t been able to focus to read, and I have  a book club meeting like in 2 weeks… or 3… whenever the 22nd is.

Have a great evening!

❤ Amber